oh, geezz.
wanna know a secret? i don't want to be a leader. plus, in no way am i qualified. i'm not outgoing, people generally don't listen to me, i don't generally listen to people too well, and people should nott look up to me. even though they do..don't ask me why. with all that said, i don't get why everybody wants me to be one so bad. everywhere i turn, people act as if i'm supposed to be this perfect example. news for the day, i should nott be an example to anyone. that's just my two cents on the situation. plus! know what..nevermind. you get it.
another secret? okay. i kind of forgot about this whole blogging deal. i've just been a busy guy lately. i can't help it. and i think that because i haven't been blogging, all my feelings are just staying inside. which, consequently, leads to me acting different. and not just around my friends, but around my family too. it's a bad cycle. so, blogging = happiness. at least to me..
lately, i've been thinking about how the only person i think about is myself. and that i want to help people with whatever i do. but, i got offered to go on a three month tour, playing music. and i said no. don't ask me why. i just felt like it wasn't what i was supposed to do. but now, i'm thinking it was a bad idea to turn them down. that could of been my onlyy chance to do something with my life. and ultimately, helping people. that's all i really want to do.
help people.
i feel like i'm growing up too fast. i'm only 15. i have all of high school to figure myself out.
and on that note..i'm going to end this short blog. i just had to get some stuff off of my chest.
wanna know a secret?
Wanna know a secret?
ReplyDeletei had all of high school and a year of college and i'm still trying to figure myself out. you aren't the only one, so don't fret.
(: miss you pauly!