there's really only one thing we can do;

play week..

this is going to be short. 'cause i need sleep, or something..

i'm freakin' out a little bit. or..maybe a whole lot (i really need to take off this make up, by the way). but i already decided (here comes my self encouragement paragraph..be ready), no matter what the circumstances, i'm going to be huge. people are going to laugh at me. people are going to think i'm the greatest. but, for people to think that, i'm going to have to change a lot of what i do. it's going to be twenty million times better that what it has been. i promise you, joana.

woah, speaking of freaking out. i about did today. but not because of the play. because of other reasons. i don't know what the heck is going on, and i hate it. i just want to run away, just to breathe a little. also, it's time for a change. a big one. i don't know how i'm going to do it, but it's going to happen. i feel like it needs to in order for me to get out of this state i'm in.

and then there's school. it stresses me out worse than anything. i just need to step it up. i used to be an all A student, but i don't know what happened to that. i just kind of stopped caring. that comes to an end now. well..after i skip first block tomorrow, that is..

i haven't played pokemon in so long.