he melts whenever she speaks;

i went for the longest walk today.

every time i look into her eyes;

i see a little bit more sunshine.

feel a little bit more like me;

instead of who i turned out to be.

wouldn't trade it for the world.

that's all.

my heart is with you;

i couldn't sleep until 6 this morning.

i decided to go for a drive today. i don't have my license, but i was home alone and had nothing to do. so i drove around my country block. as i was driving i looked around at the fields, and in one of the fields, just one tree was standing. just a single tree in the middle of a whole entire field. and i couldn't figure out why when the farmers decided to cut down the whole wooded area, they decided to keep that one tree there.

when i got home i started thinking about why farmers would even cut down that whole "forest" just for a field. i mean, i understand food is important, and so is making a living if you're that farmer, but i'm pretty sure air is more important. there's plenty of room in other places for farmland where you wouldn't even have to cut down all those trees (except one).

and then, i started thinking about cars and technology. don't get me wrong, i love all kinds of technology. but things like cars, and expressways, and all these things that don't have a real purpose except for polluting, i don't love. people can live without cars, trust me, they did it for thousands of years. and without cars, no expressways to cut through the land. next time your going through a rural area, look around. it's beautiful. and us, as people, are destroying it. just because we want things now.

but then i started thinking about that tree again. suppose it grew out of the ground after the farmers plowed the field. maybe it was trying to make a stand; trying to tell the farmers they were ruining the way things are supposed to be. maybe it was trying to get people to realize the way they're living is wrong, and that they're headed in the complete opposite direction that they should be.

or maybe, it was just trying to be different. and if that's the case, i look up to that tree. i respect anyone or anything that dares to be different in this world. this scary world.

i pray that someday i have the guts to be just like that tree. different.

..or maybe it was just trying to be a tree.

i'm not like them;

i need a break.

this is going to be a just because blog. just because somebody i don't think i've ever talked to told me that they liked my blog. it made my day. and i just wanted to share. i'm glad this is giving enjoyment to more than two people. i think i've said it before, but all i really want to do is make a difference. so you could go look back if you wanna know more about that topic.

so..it's summer, and i haven't done anything. nothing. is it a bad thing? not onee bit. summer is just what i needed. almost. i just feel disconnected from everybody. and i really hate it. lately i've been thinking about all the people that i've lost contact with, and i want to say sorry. i doubt any of them will read this, but i just get caught up in things. sorry. i wish things didn't end up the way they are.

i feel like i need a topic to write about. but i really can't think of anything relevant right now. so i'm going to post this, just because. and i hope everybody reading this has an awesome day. i love you all.

i cleaned all day today.