Monday, May 2, 2011

i'm beginning to like this sunshine;

my best friend just came and said hi real quick.

i really, really don't like when people complain. and that's ironic, 'cause i'm complaining right now, but when it's over stupid stuff, i can't stand it. maybe not complain, but when people get angry over stupid stuff. i was just looking through my twitter feed, and nobody had anything positive to say. check tumblr out, and it's all sad little quotes or stupid pictures of girls with long hair, short shirts and short shorts. and don't even get me started with facebook. i just wish people would go out and see the good things. i go for daily walks and look for everything good. and that's how i survive.

i'm overwhelmed by school right now. so overwhelmed i haven't been going. i faked being sick three days last week, and today i worked the student council blood drive. ..i'm not on student council. i just want it to be over, ya know? and not just for the summer. for forever. then i could spend my days doing useful stuff. useful stuff like witnessing. studying the Bible. reading about how to become what God wants me to be. and jammin' on my guitar. or whatever..

this is my first post in a long time. and it's kind of natural for me to just type. i'm not entirely sure why, but whatever i think, i type it down. some people write letters and never send them, but i guess that's not for me. and i'm not sure if this blogging deal is for me either, but it'll have to work for now. what i really like to do is write songs. but stupid songs that don't make sense and don't rhyme. that's how i really get everything out. i write them on the back of my biology papers. mrs. carlson might think i'm crazy.

speaking of biology, it's an interesting thing. i'm supposed to be doing a practice exam thing that was due a week ago. but i really just don't want to. and that's why i'm blogging, i guess. 'cause i don't feel like doing anything ever again. i just checked my grades, they're bad. i need to get a grip.

i like john mayer, matt nathanson, a little meg & dia, the new passion cd, some chill jams from jason mraz, la despute, and really anything i can just sit and listen to. i don't like..

i can't keep going, i'm freaking out about my school right now, i need to be there. right now. i need to talk to my teachers. man. this is messed up.

my best friend was my dog koda, by the way.