my eyes are no good, blind without her

quick post before church

i've been thinking lately, thinkin' a lot. actually, not really. i just lied. but this morning i went to church band practice and was kind of really tired and didn't want to be there too bad. but i was there and i couldn't do anything about it. anyway, we were going through all the songs and they were alright, then we got to the last song. it's called "how he loves". now..i'm not sure if you've ever heard that song or if you even believe there is a God, but it's a great song.

that's all.

i'm beginning to like this sunshine;

my best friend just came and said hi real quick.

i really, really don't like when people complain. and that's ironic, 'cause i'm complaining right now, but when it's over stupid stuff, i can't stand it. maybe not complain, but when people get angry over stupid stuff. i was just looking through my twitter feed, and nobody had anything positive to say. check tumblr out, and it's all sad little quotes or stupid pictures of girls with long hair, short shirts and short shorts. and don't even get me started with facebook. i just wish people would go out and see the good things. i go for daily walks and look for everything good. and that's how i survive.

i'm overwhelmed by school right now. so overwhelmed i haven't been going. i faked being sick three days last week, and today i worked the student council blood drive. ..i'm not on student council. i just want it to be over, ya know? and not just for the summer. for forever. then i could spend my days doing useful stuff. useful stuff like witnessing. studying the Bible. reading about how to become what God wants me to be. and jammin' on my guitar. or whatever..

this is my first post in a long time. and it's kind of natural for me to just type. i'm not entirely sure why, but whatever i think, i type it down. some people write letters and never send them, but i guess that's not for me. and i'm not sure if this blogging deal is for me either, but it'll have to work for now. what i really like to do is write songs. but stupid songs that don't make sense and don't rhyme. that's how i really get everything out. i write them on the back of my biology papers. mrs. carlson might think i'm crazy.

speaking of biology, it's an interesting thing. i'm supposed to be doing a practice exam thing that was due a week ago. but i really just don't want to. and that's why i'm blogging, i guess. 'cause i don't feel like doing anything ever again. i just checked my grades, they're bad. i need to get a grip.

i like john mayer, matt nathanson, a little meg & dia, the new passion cd, some chill jams from jason mraz, la despute, and really anything i can just sit and listen to. i don't like..

i can't keep going, i'm freaking out about my school right now, i need to be there. right now. i need to talk to my teachers. man. this is messed up.

my best friend was my dog koda, by the way.

we're livin' it up

i changed my mind. tumblr will be for some fun, this is for real talk. new blog about life before spring break is over. but right now, i'm going to go have a life instead of sit in my room and blog.

i hope you all have a faaantastic day.

moving!

welll, i'm moving from here to tumblr. so if you actually ever read this, go to the link at the end of this post, click it, and follow me. it'll be fun. i promiss. 

http://lilpnoman.tumblr.com/

oh. also, there is a link there to here if you ever want to come and read any of my old blogs. 

i hope you are all living your life and not caring what other people think. ;)

it's been a long time;

i've been playing a lot of halo lately.

you can call me now straight from me blog! it's pretty darn awesome, so i think you should try it sometime.

thats all.

sweet deal.

i don't have a title.

happy 4th of july? yeah..

soo..this could either be an optimistic blog, or a pessimistic one. i haven't really decided yet. i mostly like to be optimistic, but i'm in a pretty bad mood right now. don't ask me why. maybe it's just 'cause summer is a bummer. in my eyes anyway. i can't stand it. there's absolutely nothing to do. also, i've recently discovered i have no friends. which is alright with me, i don't really need fake friends. one or two awesome friends is greatt with me. so i guess i'm set, right? yeah.. i just need to get out of here. so while i was thinking about that, i decided that i'm going to have some of this happy, and some of it sad. so you get the best of both worlds. but you could probably go without the pessimistic world. i guess that's too bad for you though. i have to have some way to get stuff off my chest.

lets start off with the happy. then the middle will be a little bit more sad, and i'll end on a happy note. sweet. i've spent the last two days at my grandpa and grandma's house. and if there's one thing i've decided, it's that i want to be just like my grandpa when i get old. he's the nicest, most interesting guy i know. and never runs out of things to talk about. even when he's the way he is. i love him. and i don't love very many people. i don't hug my in-laws, i figure they have to earn it. and i don't think they have. brenna calls me a jerk 'cause of things like that. but in my head it just makes sense. it's just nobody ever takes the time to listen.

on the same subject of family..i feel like i don't fit in with any of them. they all like sports. and me? i like music. and art. ya know, those kind of things. even though i guess i'm very naturally gifted with sport things (i know, i know), at least that's what the rest of my family says. and they all push me to do sports. one of these days i'm just going to explode. hopefully i don't, but i can just tell it's going to happen. and on the note of nobody listening, from the last part, i wish people did. i want to be heard. i want to be noticed. but most of all, i want to make a difference. and how am i supposed to do that when nobody ever listens? someday, i'll find a way to force people to notice. i will make a difference.

i don't know how to end this happily. have you ever watched meet the robinsons? greattt movie. i highly recommend you watch it. maybe that's what i need. too bad i don't have it, and i deleted it. this is sad. ahh! happy ending; almost forgot. i'll download it again and i'll be happy. you should go watch it too. ;).

i miss you.

he melts whenever she speaks;

i went for the longest walk today.

every time i look into her eyes;

i see a little bit more sunshine.

feel a little bit more like me;

instead of who i turned out to be.

wouldn't trade it for the world.

that's all.